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How Can I Breathe?

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So what do you do?

Mon Jun 15, 2009, 2:39 PM
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Listening to: Pandora
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: The Computer Screen
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
I hate looking back at the past and looking at all of my mistakes and everything that I've lost. Friends. Family. Everything that I've ever treasured. How do you lose something so easily? It echos in my head and yet there's no mistake to what I did. It must have been on purpose, I must have wanted this life but now it's regret. I need help, a lot of it. I need a new out look. I need a saviour.

Art. Hah. That's fictionary now. I keep wondering why I keep coming back on here half of the time when I have nothing to share. I have nothing do but but it seems like rant in this journal. Is that my purpose now? Maybe. I suppose you could look at it like how the snow falls to the ground just to later dissapear. Everything disappears. I should know that, right?

People like Erika, Sarah, Lyly, and Lauren. What did I do to lose them? I let go of my memories and now I'm searching for them. I let go of those years of fun and I realize this. I told them I was done with it. Now look at me, back on my knees, bleeding, searching, wandering, and just hoping that maybe I could do something to make up for my mistakes. Though there is nothing I can do.

After what I said to some of them. After all those times I looked away and pushed them away. After how many times you hurt someone. You learn that there can be no forgiveness for what you've done. It's slience now. Errie because it can't ever be peaceful. Maybe I'm being obsessive because I know that they've moved on without me in their lives. Not like they should may me any attention though. I'm one person out of billions of people.

Heh. I've only got one thing to hold on to. Not paper, nor pencil. No computer, no art. Nothing but my mind. My other side, my little character that I hold on to in the back of my head. The one I still try to work on but there's no fixing him either because there's no fixing me. That's the problem when you start a life of a role-player and allow yourself to become consumed by your other half.

I believe I'm in need of an outcome. If only there was one.

In art,
Tidus

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  • Current Residence: だいたいマグロの現実と夢
  • Interests: 音楽、デッサン、スケート
  • Favourite movie: The Nightmare Before Christmas
  • Favourite band or musician: Panic! at the Disco
  • Favourite genre of music: ロック・ミュージック
  • Favourite artist: Twilight-Miko, Atsuyojuunfuyumi, SILLYevilGIRL, and Lyly-chan
  • Favourite poet or writer: Twilight-Miko, Atsuyojuunfuyumi, SILLYevilGIRL, and Lyly-chan
  • Favourite photographer: Twilight-Miko, Atsuyojuunfuyumi, SILLYevilGIRL, and Lyly-chan
  • Favourite style of art: 日本の漫画。
  • Operating System: コンピュータ。
  • MP3 player of choice: 私のお父さんの携帯電話。
  • Shell of choice: カメ。 =3
  • Wallpaper of choice: 鉱山。 <3
  • Skin of choice: 薄い。
  • Favourite game: World of Warcraft
  • Favourite gaming platform: コンピュータ。
  • Favourite cartoon character: 犬ヤシ
  • Personal Quote: "I miss your smile more than anything in the world."
  • Tools of the Trade: 多数。 xP

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thanks for the watch ^^

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~♥~ Love is one thing ~♥~
~♥~ Hate is another ~♥~
Hi there, I was wondering if your club :iconiyfanclub: was still alive. Thanks in advance. =)

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Kingdom Hearts: TKW --- =MyFantasiWorld
Conker's Clubhouse --- ~TheCockAndPlucker
Gears of War Fanclub --- ~GearsOfWarClub
You have a wonderful gallery. Love all your work. :3

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I've learned a few things in my pathetic life:

People don't care. They don't know your pain. They never understand until it's too late...
Thanx for the watch, dude! |3

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I follow in the philosophy of kick @$$ anime like: Naruto, Kingdom Hearts, Dragon Ball Z, and Bleach (not speccifcally in that order)
Haven't heard of you in ages! (I was away, too, for a while). How are you these days?

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Clubs: :iconourlovingembrace: :iconRainbow-Colour-Club: :iconThattime: :iconClubInuyasha:

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Attól még, hogy senki nem ért meg, és sokat hisztizel, nem vagy művész... :D
Thanks for adding me to your friends list! :)
I like forgot to watch you... xD' Oops soory!

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Is Twilight Axel in the Bulletshot Symphony Anime Brigade!
Proud member of [link] check us out, you might find something nice
Thank you for the watch -- I will try my best! ^ ^

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:matrixfight: Rejoice -- KH:reCoM is coming out to the USA December 2nd! I CAN HAVE SOMETHING TO DO!
thankies for the Watch!!!

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la la la la..la la la la...retard's world...NOW AND FOREVER!!!!
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Thank you so much for the watch! I really appreciate it. :] You have a nice gallery as well.

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Looking for a kick ass manga with action, romance, and a strong female character?
Read Heirloom!

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